I think of St Padre Pio bilocating and I think…THAT isn’t enough for me!
Being a mom of 7 precious monkeys, I need to be in like ten places at once! So I pray to their guardian angels and I ask God to help me capture the things that are important to HIM today. I can’t erase the past but I see the mountain in front of me NOW and know I can’t just stand at the bottom and complain and throw myself on the ground and complain and expect to be standing at the summit (I am guilty of this more than I can count…) I am just standing here (sorry WITHOUT shoes Flylady) and I say "God…here it is! It is YOURS! now what work do I do for YOU? That approach has humbled me more because it isn’t all me that has caused this…I did have some help. I find myself apologizing to my husband as to why it is so bad…I am sorry…I didn’t…I should have…I trried buuut… and it is all true, but there is more than that.
I am not going to think of it as my failure anymore and try to get enough rest, some exercise and pray and just try to do what God wants every day. It makes more peace in my heart and it clears my head and conscience.
I know that if I can’t pray the whole rosary, I can take that moment and pray a Hail Mary slowly and respectfully as I …scrub the toilet. I know that I may not be able to pray the whole Chaplet of Mercy, but I can say some of the prayers with my whole heart while I wash out a pot. As I sweep the dirt away by the backdoor, I will meditate on all the dirt that came in on Jesus’ feet and complain less. As I clean the ordinary I will think of the extraordinary and turn it around into a contemplation of God and His marvelous gifts. I will do the best I can, even if my floor needs to be replaced….even if I broke ANOTHER dish…even if that darned knob will not stay on the bathroom door. I will make sure my HEART is clean so God will feel comfortable in there even if I don’t feel like my living room is as clean as it should be. I will make that light in me shine, even if the lamps in my house need to be dusted so bad and I want to feel guilty because I NEVER think of dusting them off because there are too many other things that need to be done…I will write my prayers in the dust if that is all I can do with it 😉 I will not give or take excuses as to why things are the way they are, I will just keep trying to build good habits in myself and my kids with what I have RIGHT NOW.
I have my mission….I know the disposition of my heart is what will keep this house running. Without love I am nothing….this is my favorite quote as of late from St John Newman..
God has created me to do him some definite service; He has committed some work to me which he has not committed to another. I have my mission; I never may know it in this life, but I shall be told it in the next. I have a part in a great work; I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good, I shall do His work; I shall be an angel of peace, a preacher of truth in my own place, while not intending it, if I do but keep His commandments and serve Him in my calling."
"Lead kindly light amid the encircling gloom, lead Thou me on," Newman wrote in The Pillar of the Cloud; and for him Christ was the light at the heart of every kind of darkness. For his tomb he chose the inscription: Ex umbris et imaginibus in veritatem; and it was clear at the end of his life’s journey that Christ was the truth he had found.
"But Newman’s search was shot through with pain. Once he had come to the unshakable sense of the mission entrusted to him by God, he declared: "Therefore, I will trust Him . . . If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve Him, in perplexity, my perplexity may serve Him . . . He does nothing in vain . . . He may take away my friends. He may throw me among strangers. He may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide the future from me. Still, He knows what He is about" (Meditations and Devotions). All these trials he knew in his life; but rather than diminish or destroy him they paradoxically strengthened his faith in the God who had called him, and confirmed him in the conviction that God "does nothing in vain." In the end, therefore, what shines forth in Newman is the mystery of the Lord’s Cross: this was the heart of his mission, the absolute truth which he contemplated, the "kindly light" which led him on."
PRAYERS FOUND IN BISHOP NEUMANN’S DIARY:
"My God, how great Thou art, how wonderful in all Thy works! Teach me Thy will that I may begin and end all my actions for Thy greater glory."
" Speak to me, 0 my God, let me know Thy will, for behold I am ready to fulfill Thy every command. The difficult, the irksome, I will patiently endure for love of Thee."